FORMALS:
when people say it is a once in a lifetime experience… they are right. I had the best formals I could ask for. From having all my big bros being there minus (because he had work) to having my whole family line, all my twins, and the best big sis cheering me on all the way through. it is a night i will always remember and hold close to my heart.
not only that having such a sweet formal’s date. from driving me to buying me food so i would “survive the after party”… to taking me to carls jr. because i’ve never had it and you thought it was a crime. Getting lost and being over 40 minutes late to formals but finding out we were the early ones to taking care of me in my not so perfect state. For getting me an installs gift when you really didn’t have to… & for making me feel special.
// its amazing…//
how much you have gained… how much you have lost…. how much you stronger you will be…
// Formals in T-2 days….//
genetics midterm tomorrow… its weird how i’m not completely stressing out yet like i usually do… then again the night is still early i’m sure by midnight i’ll be freaking out.. its okie all nighter for the first time this quarter =]
formals is this friday and still i am not done with gifts. why is it that last minute i have the brilliant idea of making blankets for my big bros… smh. still need to get the rest of my big sis’s presents and my formal’s date present. so much to do and so little time…. BUT I’m finally really excited about friday for some reason. it’s hard to be happy now a days but maybe friday will be the big push i need to keep my head up and smile just a little bit more.
Your 20’s are your ‘selfish’ years. It’s a decade to immerse yourself in every single thing possible. Be selfish with your time, and all the aspects of you. Tinker with shit, travel, explore, love a lot, love a little, and never touch the ground.
- my new moto. going to life by this from now on. its about time for me to find out who i REALLY am.
// cheers to new beginnings.//
TODAY I:
- chopped off my long hair…it is now shoulder length
- in the process of dying my hair light brown
- OH & IM RUSH CHAIR FOR SOPI FALL! meaning i get to rush girls for my future lil sis’s class! =]
- OH & IM IN INTENSIVE CARE EMERGENCY DEPARTMENT FOR CCE ;]
& i’ll always love you. please know that.
// one last time…//
Today I realized that I’m starting to move on. Although you have hurt me and although I know I am still hurt by your words and the actions you have chosen to do I still care about you. I hope to move on from this experience and be a stronger person. I know now that I deserve someone who will be my equal who will love me for who I am. Who will keep me grounded and who will make me a better person. It’s time to grow up. For the both of us it’s time to move on with our lives. It’s time to realize that growing up means living outside the walls we are comfortable with. I think we cling on to each other because we know we will always be there for one another and that only we understand each other but that’s not true… It’s time to let others in and it’s time to grow up we aren’t in high school anymore… We aren’t the same sophomore and junior in high school. This is me saying good bye for the last time and that I hope we both move on and grow up and become better and stronger people. I will always care about you because you are an important part of my life and you have taught me so much about myself good and bad. I wish you only happiness and that you find everything you are looking for. Take care and thank you for all the years of happiness and the moments I will hold close to my heart because I am glad I met you and I do not regret our past. <3
for now..
(Source: viridiannightmares, via stayxinspired)
& maybe if you are lucky I will let you in.
